The Power of Momentum…

The Mended Heart Quote

I have to admit, I was a little discouraged.

The prompt for #livefreeThursday was “nothing holding me back” and I immediately felt a heaviness inside. A sense that I was somehow ‘less than’. That I didn’t measure up.

I felt a longing deep within for those words to be true of me, but I knew that this just wasn’t my reality.

There are, after all, things that I know still hold me back…

Insecurity. Pain. Times of deep sadness.

Difficulty coping with stress and dealing with conflict.

Trouble navigating relationships.

All stemming from the trauma that I endured as a small child.

It’s not that I don’t want these words to be true. I long for the day that I can boldly proclaim that nothing is holding me back. When my loving, heavenly Father has healed my pain and redeemed my brokenness.

The journey is well underway – of that I am sure. He has taken me by the hand and gently led me along the path toward healing.

I am learning to recognize the lies of the enemy, and to stand firmly against them by declaring the truth of God’s word.

I have found freedom from destructive habits, stemming from years of believing that I deserved to be punished.

And perhaps the most beautiful of all, I am learning the truth of the Father’s love for me. As I quiet myself in His presence and listen for His voice, I hear Him whisper words of affection to my heart of hearts. That I am accepted. Treasured. Loved beyond measure.

Yet, my heart longs for something more.

I have sensed Him speaking personal words of promise – that my brokenness will be redeemed for good, and will impact the lives of many who are hurting. That I will minister to God’s precious children, from a place of genuine understanding and love. That the evil which was meant to destroy, will become the very place where the light of Jesus shines most brightly into a world desperate for hope.

My loving, heavenly Father keeps reminding me of the words of 2 Corinthians 1:3-5,

All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort. He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us. For the more we suffer for Christ, the more God will shower us with his comfort through Christ.

The trouble is, I don’t see it happening yet. At least not the fullness of the promise. I see glimpses, here, as I share my story of healing with each of you, but I often wonder how many people I am really helping.

If I’m honest, it often seems that I am the one who is benefiting most, as words of encouragement and love are lavished on me from week to week. The love of the Father shining through each of you.

But am I ministering to those who are hurting and broken? Am I comforting them with the same comfort God has given me? I’m not sure.

When I shared these thoughts on Facebook, I was encouraged by a sweet friend to trust in God’s timing, to be faithful where He has me, and to be courageous enough to “take those steps out on the water when He calls me to”.

It was a wonderful reminder that discernment is such an important part of following God’s will for our lives. We need to be still and listen for His prompting, taking care not to run ahead of Him – thinking we are doing His work, but acting outside of His perfect timing.

Immediately after this conversation, I had one of those amazing God moments as I read Chapter 7 of the Mended Heart – as God confirmed the truths that He had been impressing on my heart.

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I was encouraged by the truth that although we may feel ‘stuck’ in our present difficulties, even the smallest changes, made incrementally, are moving us forward into healing.

Many of the emotional ties to my past had been loosened, and I was changing bit by bit. There were moments when I was surprised by unexpected confidence or a peace that swirled deep inside of me, like a cleansing rush. When I looked in the mirror, I embraced the message that my life was of value to Him. Momentum was taking place in my faith, and in my personal and spiritual maturity.

~ The Mended Heart  (pp. 146-147)

What gloriously hopeful words! Momentum is taking place, and even the smallest of changes add up to a life transformed!

But what am I to do with the feeling that I am not doing anything of kingdom value, during this season of waiting on God?

Suzie shares how the apostle Paul is placed under house arrest because the authorities don’t know what to do with him, “Paul is in limbo. Not totally imprisoned. But not free.” She points out the frustration that Paul must be feeling, as his longing to share the gospel has been frustrated by long periods of being ‘stuck’ at home.

Yet, what came of those years? Of the times that Paul must have felt were wasted opportunities for ministry?

During this time, he wrote letters of encouragement and teaching to the churches in Ephesus, Corinth, Rome, Galatia, Philippi, Colossae, and Thessalonica. And words of encouragement to ministers of the gospel – Timothy, Titus and Philemon. These words which make up almost a quarter of our New Testament.

What spiritual poverty we would live in without the gift of Paul’s words!

He could not possibly have imagined the impact of walking in faithfulness to the task God had called him to at that time. Aside from bringing the gospel to the Gentiles, Paul’s writing is arguably his greatest contribution to the kingdom.

Can you imagine the joy of the Father as He revealed the fullness of His plan to Paul in eternity?

I love the encouragement that Suzie offers…

Don’t underestimate what God is doing in you in this season. It might very well be the most powerful place of momentum as your ‘letters’ – the key place where God grows you and works through you – are written on your heart, and in your relationships with others.

~ The Mended Heart  (p. 159)

What glorious truths will He reveal to your heart, dear friend, when you meet Him face-to-face?

May we learn to be faithful in the place that God has us – whether that be waiting on Him during times of limbo, clinging to Him during trials, or running with Him into all that He calls us to do – with nothing holding us back!

In His sweet love,

Kamea

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24 thoughts on “The Power of Momentum…

  1. I see such a lovely season happening for you since the first time I even read your blog, Kamea… your words and thoughts more rested and inspired and beautiful and healing.
    God is busy at work in you, and when He reveals His plan, you’ll be completely ready. We all need to be reminded of this for sure. Keep going, you’re such an inspiration!
    “…Being faithful in the place God has us…” so blessed by this!

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    • My sweet friend,

      I was deeply blessed by your words of encouragement. What a beautiful confirmation of His hand at work in my life, that you see a change in me even in the few months we have known one another. That you see that my words and thoughts are more rested – and truly they are. There has been something so healing about having a safe place to share my thoughts and feelings, not to mention the amazing blessing of so many wonderful friends who shower me with love and support. This has truly been a healing place for me, and I pray that this will extend into the lives of others as well!

      Much love,
      Kamea

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  2. Kamea, keep speaking from your heart and know God doesn’t waste any of it. You’ve been a tremendous encouragement to me and I thank God for you! Often I feel this same pressure that I want to be making a difference and wonder if I am stuck. When God uses our pain to help others it’s so redeeming. I’m so glad He does this! However, I find myself checking stats on my blog, not seeing likes and wondering if I’m just wasting my time. I feel the pressure that I wish I could make more of a difference for God. And I remember that He has called me to rest in Him. I’m glad I’m not struggling alone in this. I am reminded as I read your blog that everything I do matters even when I feel like it doesn’t. As a matter of fact those times when I feel stuck might just be God’s greatest tools to bring me closer to Him.

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    • Amen, sweet friend!

      As I’ve been reading the words of others this week, it seems that a lot of people are struggling with this very thing – feeling that somehow their words are wasted, that their stories are not having an impact, that they are wasting their time. But God 🙂 I just love this little phrase. We have no idea of the masterpiece that He is creating, but we can trust in the truth that He is faithful!

      Much love,
      Kamea

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  3. Your brokenness certainly is being redeemed for something good, Kamea. I’ve never read any of your blog posts before this morning, but I can tell you just from reading this one post that right now the redemption process is well underway. I know this because you described perfectly the journey I have been on for many years. The event that set me on my journey is probably not the same as the one that set you on yours, but I know the journey. Believe me when I tell you that you are likely much farther down the path than you think you are. Your words blessed my soul this morning as I visited at #LiveFreeThursday.

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    • Welcome dear one,

      I am so glad to have a new friend stop by and join the conversation! I love the comfort that comes from knowing I am not alone in my struggles, so thank you! I would love to have you along as a support and encouragement for the journey! It sounds like you would have a lot of wisdom to offer someone who is not as far along that path as you are.

      Blessings and hugs,
      Kamea

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  4. Kamea,
    I’m certain there will be many who can identify with the struggle you so eloquently express. It is common to most of us. And although the circumstances may vary, the desire to see our pain redeemed as God uses it to speak to others is universal. My 21-year-old daughter spoke about hating the waiting game on her blog and received responses from the entire spectrum of ages. We resonate. But oh, what a beautiful train of thought and truth-bathed response you are preaching to yourself.
    And one day, you’ll look around and see that those limping beside you are there because you took time to walk slowly down the path of healing. They wouldn’t be there if you had been sprinting ahead. Keep walking in faith, dear sister!

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    • Dearest Christi,

      I absolutely love the picture you painted in your words here – of walking slowly along the path toward healing in order to keep pace with those who are limping alongside me. That is a picture that I know will stick with me, and encourage me along the way.

      Much love,
      Kamea

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  5. Kamea-You and your blog have blessed me greatly. It has given me so much comfort to have someone to walk this road with, and has helped me not to get discouraged with the pace of God’s work in my life. I am so grateful for you and your words and the ministry God is working out through your story. Thanks for sharing and being faithful even when it feels like being in limbo.You are a blessing to me and so many.

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    • My sweet Susie,

      Knowing that others can relate to the often slow and difficult pace of healing, and that sharing my frustrations has been an encouragement, means so much! I am thankful that you consider Incremental Healing a place of blessing – that warms my heart. Know this – you have been an amazing blessing to me as well. I love your gentle spirit and your beautiful perspective on life!

      Love and hugs,
      Kamea

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  6. I could hear the chains falling as I read. Sweet freedom, it is good and it is right.

    With every post you write, every story you share, you are ministering. Believe me, you are encouraging and poring hope into all who read.

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    • Dear Michelle,

      I love your sweet words of encouragement, that you could hear the chains falling as you read! And you are right, Jesus died so we could be free – may we live free indeed! Thank you for your kind words of encouragement, they mean so much!

      Blessings and hugs,
      Kamea

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  7. Oh, Kamea, (((Hug)))
    I love your vulnerability. That type of humility is perfect soil for Him to plant in. Keep doing what you’re doing, sister. Sometimes we’re privy to the fruit of our obedience, and sometimes, we’ll never know this side of heaven…but, that doesn’t mean that God isn’t at work. And, His timing…it’s inexplicable by human standards. You may write something this week, that touches someone somewhere two years from now. Keep moving…He’s worth it. ~ Hug ~

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    • You are so right, sweet Brenda. His ways are not our ways. To Him, a day is as a thousand years – so there is no delay in the plan to His way of thinking. What an encouragement. Thank you for stopping by and inspiring me to press on!

      Much love,
      Kamea

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  8. Dear Kamea, how I want to sit with you over coffee, look into your eyes and tell you just how much your journey sharing here is impacting my own and no doubt many more who may never leave a comment. Please believe you already have a marvellous ministry and will grow more into those plans God intends for you. I’ve seen changes in the relatively short time I’ve known you here, and they are all for the good. Sometimes we are just too close to see the difference we may be making in the lives of others or how far we have come on our personal journey of life and faith.
    I love your listening ear and attentive heart as you walk the path toward greater wholeness and healing. I always come away having learnt a little bit more about growing in relationship with God and overcoming a painful past. This post is no exception. These words helped me enormously:”May we learn to be faithful in the place that God has us – whether that be waiting on Him during times of limbo, clinging to Him during trials, or running with Him into all that He calls us to do – with nothing holding us back!” Amen! May you continue to write in such a way that others are blessed and encouraged in the sharing. Blessings and hugs. Xx ❤

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    • Sweet Joy,

      How wonderful that would be – to sit together over coffee, share stories, and exchange hugs. If not this side of heaven, then someday in eternity. Makes me excited for that day when we can worship our Lord and Savior together, and walk together in wholeness and abundant joy! I have come to love you, dear one. You are a treasured friend!

      Blessings and hugs (virtual for now),
      Kamea

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  9. Kamea,
    I am always so blessed by the words you pour out from your heart. God IS doing a mighty work in you and through you! I think it is like the saying of not seeing the forest for the trees. You are up so close, you cannot see the great big work happening. It seems small to you at times, but it is not! I’m so thankful to have met you a short while ago and so look forward to knowing you better and better! You are a treasure!
    I clicked over today from #livefreeThursday (even though I would stop over anytime – even without a link:-) )
    Blessings and smiles,
    Lori

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    • Dearest Lori,

      How sweet of you to share such words of blessing and encouragement – that you see a mighty work being done – wow! As you say, I may be too close to have much perspective, so thank you! You have blessed me abundantly with your words of love. I, too, look forward to growing close as we walk this journey together. So glad to have you as a support, and as a friend!

      Much love,
      Kamea

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  10. Beautiful post, Kamea! God is truly doing a beautiful work on the inside of you, and I know He always finishes what He starts. 🙂 He will fulfill every promise He has spoken. You are making a difference, even in this season. Blessings! Tasha

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  11. Sweet Tasha,

    Thank you for the reminder that God always finishes what He starts. To that I say, Amen! He is faithful, and what He has promised, He will do. Thank you for your kind words, encouraging me that my faithfulness is making a difference, even in this season. I hope you will stop by again soon, I’d love the privilege of getting to know you, dear one.

    Blessings and hugs,
    Kamea

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  12. Sometimes those seasons of great challenge pry our hands off our control and we grab hold of his! A heart in the midst of a healing/a repair from the creator/designer – I’m there, too – and day by day, the more I grab hold of him, the more I let go – and His spirit slowly sloughs the soul! One day, you will see it and feel it more than you don’t! Beautiful post on not giving up!

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    • Love the way you phrased that, “A heart in the midst of healing…” Yes, my heart is being changed as my loving Creator does His beautiful work of restoration in my life. Thank you for reminding me that I’m not alone in my struggles, and that He is faithful!
      Blessings and hugs,
      Kamea

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  13. You definitely encourage me, but we are all generally our own worst critic. Most of us feel like we aren’t making a difference, but we can’t believe that lie. Keep on and keep the momentum going!

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