Loving the Little One…

You are who he says you are

I have a confession.

Although I’ve loved sharing my journey of learning to discern God’s voice, and my passion for reaching my new friend Jeffrey with the truth of the gospel, I have also been avoiding.

Avoiding the pain of pushing forward on the journey toward healing. The pain of inviting Jehova Rapha, the God who heals, to expose the next layer of my brokenness, and to dispel the darkness with His glorious light.

I have been untrue to the mission of Incremental Healing. I have failed, for the past while, to share the hope that I have found as my heavenly Father leads me on the path toward healing. I have not offered reassurance that you are not alone, or encouraged you to persevere.

For this, I am deeply sorry.

While I will still share on other topics from time to time, I do not want to lose the focus of this place.

So, with all that said, I am ready to share another chapter of my story…

Recently, I met with my Pastor to continue seeking God’s healing touch in my life. We discussed how my week had been, and I shared that although there are still challenges and times of brokenness, I am beginning to see evidence of the restoration that God has promised.

I shared that while I was writing ‘Child Forsaken‘, a post about a recurrent nightmare that I had as a child, I was overcome with compassion for the little girl that I once was. That I longed to take her in my arms and comfort her, reassuring her that the abuse was not her fault, and that she deserved to be loved and protected.

I told the Pastor that I sensed God softening my heart toward the little one. I realized how far along the path toward healing I have come. It was not that long ago that I hated that little girl and blamed her for the abuse, and for the suffering that followed.

The Pastor asked if I was ready to pray, and ask my heavenly Father to continue the work of healing in my life. I agreed, and we prayed that Jesus would reveal himself to me, and show me the next step in my journey.

A picture appeared in my mind’s eye, the classic bible story scene of Jesus surrounded by a crowd of little children. He was smiling and laughing as He talked with each of them.

I opened my eyes and told the Pastor what I had seen. He asked me what that picture meant to me, but I wasn’t sure. I suggested that maybe we could ask Jesus why He had chosen to reveal himself to me in this way. We closed our eyes to pray.

I tried to focus on whatever the Lord might have to say to me, and saw the picture of Jesus with the children come into sharper focus. I could now see myself, as a young child, in the scene. The little one was not close by Jesus’ side, but rather stood apart from the group, somewhat hidden in the shadows. She stole the occasional glance at Jesus and the other children, but for the most part just hung her head sadly.

I described the scene to the Pastor. He asked me what I thought Jesus might want her to do. “Well, it seems obvious that He would want her to come closer, ” I replied.

“Let’s not assume,” the Pastor reminded me. “Let’s ask Jesus.”

I closed my eyes and noticed that the scene had changed. The little one was still standing off to the side, head hung, looking unhappy, but now I could also see myself (as a grown up) in the picture. I sensed Jesus telling me that He wanted me to bring the little one to Him.

I approached her slowly, and knelt down in front of her. I smiled reassuringly and told her that Jesus wanted to see her. She stood there, not moving. She seemed unsure. “It’s okay,” I told her. “I will come with you.”

She looked up hesitantly, but willingly took my hand. I led her to Jesus’ side. He smiled lovingly at her, and reached out his arms to lift her onto his lap. He then looked directly at me, and gently told me that He was so glad that I was here too. “I know there were some things that you thought of this week that you wished you had been there to tell this precious child of mine. I need you to know that you don’t need to wish, that you can tell her, right now.”

I knelt before Jesus and reached up to take the hand of the little one, who was still seated on His lap. I smiled at her and gave her hand a gentle squeeze.

“I know about all the bad things that happened to you,” I said. “I know about the bad dream that you have at night, where your family knows what is happening, but won’t come to save you. I know that you feel all alone and really scared. I just want to tell you that the things that happened to you were not your fault, sweetheart. Those boys should not have done the things they did to you. And I’m so sorry that you were hurt.”

My head is still bowed; my tear-filled eyes closed…

“I want to tell you that you hold a special place in God’s heart. You are so valuable to Him. He is working a true miracle in your life. You are who He says you are – His precious child – so worthy of love and protection.”

Even in the vision, I am choked up with emotion as I speak these words of love to her. She smiles widely and jumps off Jesus’ lap and throws her arms around my neck. “I love you,” she whispers in my ear.

“Love you too, sweet baby girl,” I answer.

And the miracle is, I meant it.

Deeply.

While still embracing the little one, I look up and meet Jesus’ gaze. “I am so very proud of you,” he says smiling.

The Pastor’s eyes glisten with tears as I describe the exchange. As my source of godly counsel, He has been there through the long period of blame and distrust. He can appreciate the tremendous significance of these words of love, spoken so genuinely.

Truly, a glorious miracle!

But Jesus called the children to him and said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these.”

Luke 18:16  (NIV)  

May God richly bless you, sweet one, with the knowledge that you, yes YOU, are so very precious in His eyes,

Kamea

Linking with: PurposeFul Faith, Jennifer Dukes Lee, Chasing the Blue Flower, Holly Barrett, Coffee for your Heart, Suzie Eller, Faith BaristaSusan B. Mead

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30 thoughts on “Loving the Little One…

  1. Amazing words from an amazing woman! I know this was so hard to go through and then to write about. You had me in tears for you as a little girl and as an adult.
    God is using you to help others heal, so thank you for being willing!

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    • You are so sweet, my friend. Thank you for your compassionate heart, that shed tears from a place of genuine love. Healing comes in this way too, from seeing God’s love, expressed through His children. We are not meant to walk this journey alone. I am so blessed to have you walk by my side!

      Much love,
      Kamea

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  2. Hi Kamea! I can see why you’d want to avoid this tender subject. But it is so powerful to read about, it brings tears to my eyes! I love how your pastor said “Let’s not assume, let’s ask Jesus.” Such wise words. And it all led to a breakthrough! I’m so happy for you.
    Thank you for tenderly sharing your journey,
    Ceil

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    • Weren’t those words from my Pastor so beautiful in their simplicity and truth. If only we would live each day with that prayer in the forefront of our minds, and on the tip of our tongues. Thank you for your encouragement and love, sweet friend.

      May God richly bless you,
      Kamea

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    • Welcome Sharon,

      I am so glad to have you here, sweet one. Yes, my Pastor is a gift and a blessing. My husband and I tell him often how much we appreciate the time he invests in our family.

      I hope you will come by again soon, I’d love to be able to get to know you!

      Love,
      Kamea

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  3. Oh wow, Kamea! Just wow! Amazing post, my Dear! And so beautifully written! You are an incredible woman and you are so precious in our SAVIOR’S sight! Love, peace, strength, and infinite blessings to you, my Love! 🙂 *HUGS*

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    • Sweet Stacey,

      What beautiful words of encouragement. I am still learning to embrace such abundant words of love – His masterpiece, seems so extravagant, and yet He is a God who loves with extravagance, isn’t He?

      Blessings and hugs,
      Kamea

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    • Welcome Debbie,

      Thank you for your words of blessing! I hope you will always feel welcome in this place. I would love to have the pleasure of your company for the journey.

      Blessings and hugs,
      Kamea

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    • Sweet Angela,

      Thank you for your beautiful words of encouragement. The journey has been difficult beyond words, but the love and support from beautiful people like you has really made such an amazing difference.

      Much love,
      Kamea

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  4. No need to apologize. Sometimes our brain needs a break. This is such a beautiful picture of the love of Christ and His compassion for our pain. Thank you for sharing it with us. It’s so encouraging. Love and hugs, sweet friend.

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    • My dear friend,

      Just this – THANK YOU! Your words “no need to apologize” really touched me and were so freeing. I sensed the truth of them as soon as I read your comment. So again, thank you!

      Much love,
      Kamea

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      • You are very welcome. I know only too well how it feels to put myself under pressure…and how God longs for us not to feel that. We are free. There is no pressure. You can keep reminding me too! 🙂 💘

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  5. Kamea, this is so moving and such a healing thing to happen! It reminded me about a similar visualisation I did with my counsellor. We invited Jesus into the scene when I was a child. He said He knew what happened, He saw everything, He cried over the injustice, He loved me and cared deeply about all the hurt, shame and pain I carried. Jesus also emphasised how I needed to know He was with me then, is with me now and always will be. Such confirming words help us sense His healing presence now and know how much He loves us, always. The wounded child is part of us and I also had to learn how to acknowledge and reassure her. I even addressed a poem to her – as yet unshared!
    Never apologise for taking a break. We all need to be attuned to what God is asking us to say, or not, as the case may be. He is still inspiring you and you are still encouraging others as you share your life and faith journey. Some subjects are just too close to home to speak freely about until the time is right. Blessings, hugs and love. Xox

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    • Sweet Joy,

      Thank you for your beautiful comment. I love how you experienced something similar with your counselor. That is such a confirmation for me, that God does indeed work in this way. I know that He does, of course, but the evil one loves to sow doubt. Thank you for assuring me that sharing other aspects of my journey is encouraging as well. I would love to read your poem, if you ever feel ready to share!

      Blessings and big hugs,
      Kamea

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  6. Kamea, I could definitely see the little girl as you described her. Know that you are loved by God and he is concerned about the things that concern you deeply. May His presence and comfort be a constant as you experience complete healing. Praying for you my friend. Be blessed! – Kia

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    • Welcome Kia,

      Thank you for your kind words of encouragement, dear one. I appreciate the reminder that God loves me deeply, and is concerned about the things on my heart. Such beautiful truths.

      Blessings and hugs,
      Kamea

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  7. Yes, yes. Gently, graciously, He brings a healing touch one layer at a time.

    You need not apologize for not moving faster, sharing more, being not enough.

    Grace, grace He offers.

    I am honored to meet you today, Kamea …

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    • Dearest Linda,

      Welcome, sweet one. Your words about gentle grace inspire a peace within me. Thank you. I would love the honor of getting to know you. I hope you will visit again soon!

      May God richly bless you,
      Kamea

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  8. Oh Kamea, you do write filled with hope. Beautifully as well I might add. Thank you today for reminding me that I am valuable and loved by our God. You bring tears to my eyes. Love. ~~visiting from Suzie’s #livefree today. I’m so glad I did.

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    • What beautiful words of encouragement, sweet Carmen. I am honored to be able to share God’s heart of love for His precious children. You are indeed loved beyond measure!

      Much love,
      Kamea

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  9. Kamea, this is so touching. (((Hug)))
    Praising God with you for the miracle of healing that is happening inside of you.
    Love this post, thank you for sharing.
    Visiting you today from the beloved brews linkup.
    ~ Best to you ~

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    • Welcome Brenda,

      Thank you for visiting Incremental Healing today, dear one! Yes, God is working a beautiful miracle of restoration. He so longs to redeem the brokenness of His precious children – to take the things the evil one meant for harm, and turn them into our greatest blessings.

      Much love,
      Kamea

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  10. I love her too…I too lost my innocence as a young child. It’s not right that our eyes see and we experience some things, but GOD…

    Hugs, from my heart to yours, sweet Kamea. Susan

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    • Amen, sweet Susan. But God, indeed! He is faithful, and is redeeming our brokenness for good! I cannot imagine dealing with the hard things that life throws our way, without His love to lift me up and His strength to sustain me.

      Blessings and hugs,
      Kamea

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