His Very Best…

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So difficult to know where to begin…

My journey toward healing has been an interesting one. At times excruciatingly painful, at times life-giving and freeing. At no point has it been easy.

I’d like to take you back to the day when I sensed God confirming that my healing would come, but would come slowly, and with much struggle.

A young lady in her mid-twenties had come to speak at my church.  She had recently been rescued from the evil world of human trafficking. She shared many horrifying details of the traumas she had endured. Abused, humiliated, shamed and dehumanized. Left with scars, both physical and emotional.  This had been her reality.

And yet, she beamed with joy as she shared how, in a moment, her whole world had changed. She was rescued from her hell on earth, and was shown love and compassion for the first time that she could remember. In time, she was introduced to Christ, and accepted his free gift of salvation – his offer to adopt her into his family, to restore her brokenness, and to redeem all her hurts. In a moment of complete surrender, she was able to release her pain.  The crushing oppression was lifted. Peace for fear. Love for self-loathing. Joy for despair.  She was free.

And how did I feel hearing her story?

I’d love to tell you that I rejoiced along with her, celebrating her freedom from oppression, her optimistic hope, and her beaming joy.

But that would be a lie.

I was angry.  It seemed so unfair that she should experience such a miraculous healing, while I was left to suffer.  ‘Why God?’ I cried out in my inner being.  ‘It’s not fair.  I have been asking for this very thing for such a long time.  You promise in your word to hear our cries. I want what she has – immediate healing and freedom from the pain and heartache’.

I sensed God speaking to me in that moment. Not an audible voice, but rather a whisper in my heart of hearts. ‘I could give you what you have been asking for,  immediate healing and freedom, but that would not be my best for you. That is my best for her. But for you, my best is something different. Will you trust me? Trust that this journey, although long and difficult, is for your ultimate good? I love you, my precious child. I am working all things together for your best.’

Wow!  I still get goosebumps reflecting on his words of love, lavished on me.

Immediate relief would not be coming as I had hoped, but God reassured me that he is always with me. He walks closely by my side through the dark valleys, and will restore me fully in his perfect timing. He loves me beyond measure.

God has a special plan for each of us, dear friends.  Although there may be aspects of our story that we do not understand – he has our ultimate best at heart.

“For I know the plans I have for you”, says the Lord, “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope”.  Jeremiah 29:11

Looking forward to my hopeful future!!  I hope you are too!

In his love,

Kamea

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17 thoughts on “His Very Best…

  1. Hello Kamea and Thank you for visiting my blog. I hope you found something that blessed you. I will be sharing more soon on hearing the voice of God. You also keep up this great work! 🙂 have a great day!

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      • Hello Kamea… This is me, Lisette… Yesterday I changed my profile picture and username and the web address to go with my new user name, not realizing it could cause all my followers to lose me. So… this is me all over again… http://www.sorayarosaria.wordpress.com. Content and topic remain the same. Teaching others on how to hear God and sharing my own personal journey with the Lover Of My Soul. If you still enjoy the posts, you can follow here now. 🙂 Keep up the good work always. Blessings…

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    • Excellent article! There truly is so much power in forgiveness. I like the second principle you shared, “Forgiveness requires that we take a full account of the debt.” I love how you articulated that. So true.
      Blessings,
      Kamea
      (I shared a link to the article on Twitter – Are you on Twitter? My Twitter account is @kamea_hope)

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    • Tim Shey, I especially like your picture posted at the end of this awesome article on forgiveness that says, “Just walk away. You don’t owe destructive people anything except your prayers and forgiveness. Stay out of their path.” BIG AMEN!

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  2. Kamea, I hadn’t read this first post by you yet. It’s so good and real. I appreciate your honest anger, because I recognize I still need to allow myself to feel anger, especially with God because He knows my heart better than anyone. Back when my husband saw a counselor he told him that couples who actually fought in a marriage were more likely to stay together… It was the ones that didn’t fight that wound up getting divorced. I think that’s because the ones that got angry and fought had real intimacy. Another interesting “coincidence” is that this blog was about human trafficking and my blog a couple of days ago was, too. God is definitely communicating through our newfound kinship. What more can be said except He is amazing! Also I’ve experienced some amazing deliverance at times in my life before, only to discover later I was in a season of life when God was doing an incredible healing in my life… But it was like being in surgery and spending a long time in recovery in a protected environment and I’m seeing now that winter always comes again with its feeling of not producing anything… And God seems so far away… Right now I’m so thankful to be writing again and seeing Him work in your life… It’s starting to feel like Spring again and after the long winter I’ve been in I’m so glad to sense the pleasure of new life again. Thanks again for sharing your story! Your friend, Liz

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    • I love how God has been revealing the special bond He had planned for us through these ‘coincidences’!
      I am so glad that it is starting to feel like Spring for you again. I feel that way as well. The winter season of my darkest days seemed unbearably long. I just didn’t understand why God would not bring healing and joy more quickly – but He knows what He’s doing, and He knows the paths I need to travel to get me to where I need to be. I am so thankful to have such a loving God who cares so much about what is best for me 🙂
      Your friend,
      Kamea

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  3. None of us is exactly alike, and is it not so strange that God deals with us each differently, even with our healings spiritual, emotional and physical. Your story of Grace is unique and very interesting as God reveals His love to you. thank you for sharing with us here at “Tell Me a True Story.”

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    • Welcome Hazel!

      I am glad you stopped by. I love your name, it is so pretty. You are right that God has a unique plan for each of His precious children. I guess that shouldn’t surprise us, but sometimes we just have ‘ideas’ about how things ‘should’ play out. I have to remind myself of the words of Isaiah 55:8-9 ““For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways…As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”

      Blessings,
      Kamea

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